Seeking Balance

OooH! Someone blogged her reaction to a blog of mine. She's ticked that I won't acknowledge that there may be one true way. BECAUSE I DON'T FUCKING BELIEVE THAT THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY! To do anything - live, respond, believe. Yes, we are all made the same - sperm and egg. But even now actual mechanis are varied. Get over it.

Returned to VaginaLand today. Given an incedibly hard for me monologue. Seems the requirement was that I have Native American ancestry. Yes, 1/64th. But I am gratefully lacking in the abuse department. Other actors are not, sad to say, but the director has other ideas.

I am all for empowering women to be uppity and stand their ground. I am blessed with a husband who understands and encourages that. And hanging with the girls is cool. But I am realizing that not being in that under 35 group allows me the opportunity to accept my level of experience. I don't have to be brash, I can be me. I don't have to "work it, baby." I even have the opportunity when I am out of VaginaLand to fly under the radar.

VaginaLand is close to the surface, emotional, raw, demanding, healing, safe for those who need safety, out of balance. I find I have to hold on to who I am outside of VL to maintain my sense of balance. Because if I were to completely cast off who I am outside, I would be lost. LOML is a constant in my life for whom I am deeply grateful, but he is not my "Bob." That is his opinion, and seeing as there is truly more than one way to achieve anything, his opinion does, in fact, have validity and should be respected.